How do I feel?

11-14-06

This is a question I ask myself every day. I feel like Robin on a (fill in name of day). It's weird. Mom said once, "It feels like I'm stuck between two lives." And I think that's the closest way to explain it. It's not a bad feeling. It's actually kind of neat.

I was in Phillips for a news interview on Monday. I had a chance to see how mom's doing. From what I see, it seems like she's doing really well. We both whined a little about how our feet still ache. It's not as bad as how it felt having to get up and walk 20 miles on them the next morning, though. But toward the end of the hike I remember saying to mom, "What's it going to feel like when our feet don't hurt?" It's one of those strange things we're learning about as we go.

I'm feeling stuck between these two lives right now. I joke to myself about how I need to get back to work, or I'm going to find myself in the middle of the woods with my backpack on asking myself, "How did I get here?"

Physically -- I think my body is probably desperately holding on to every last bit of metabolism it's got. I tried a Pilates video a couple of times, and really enjoyed it. So I think I'm going to stick with that for a bit. As soon as I can, I'm going to rejoin the YMCA and get to kickboxing classes. I loved those classes, and I can't wait to go back! I'd hike on the weekends to stay in shape, but it's winter here, and as soon as I got back to Wisconsin, I reverted back to a cold-weather wimp - now that I can be! :) But I'm still on a mission to keep myself in shape! It's been difficult to steer away from yummy foods, like milkshakes! I think I'm hanging in there pretty well. I seem to fall here and there, but I've battled with my weight my whole life (well, except for the last 8-1/2 months!!). So the rollercoaster is familiar to me, and I've controlled it before. I'm confident I can keep that up. It'll be another challenge I can work on really taking charge of.

I will keep blogging here and there, hopefully at least once a week, to flush my feelings and talk about all that's happening. Soon I'm going to do an entry on the gear we used, abused, wore out, etc. So that'll be a fun one!

posted on Tuesday, November 14, 2006 7:04 PM